I don’t want to defend my past self because while I wasn’t evil, I was garbage, and while it objectively wasn’t my fault that I entered college broken n shitty, I let it get worse until I realized I was going over a cliff with the help of a friend and I started working on myself, then acid happened, and juggling, and more acid, and MKULTRA, and a cult, and homelessness. Oh! I was a woman for a few years. Can’t forget that. I stayed at the women’s homeless shelter in Portland; I wasn’t the only one with a beard there! And that’s all going to factor in to how much the hate-fueled peoples are going to fuck themselves for it was my one handler that told me that it was my recovery and transformation that would inspire people.
It really just told me that I wasn’t just a shitty person. I was autistic and shitty.
I don’t want to defend my past self because while I wasn’t evil, I was garbage, and while it objectively wasn’t my fault that I entered college broken n shitty, I let it get worse until I realized I was going over a cliff with the help of a friend and I started working on myself, then acid happened, and juggling, and more acid, and MKULTRA, and a cult, and homelessness. Oh! I was a woman for a few years. Can’t forget that. I stayed at the women’s homeless shelter in Portland; I wasn’t the only one with a beard there! And that’s all going to factor in to how much the hate-fueled peoples are going to fuck themselves for it was my one handler that told me that it was my recovery and transformation that would inspire people.