The only gambling I do is buying lottery tickets when I’m having the worst urges to kill myself. A little trick to wait just a bit longer. “You can wait until you get the results, it’s only couple days”, and then the worst urge manages to pass in that time. It’s pretty pathetic
doing what you need to in order to keep on surviving is the opposite of pathetic. it takes a lot of courage to keep persisting despite the horrors of our world
That’s smart, it’s a form of dopamine loading, you deny yourself immediate rewards and that builds anticipation, also it lowers your baseline dopamine so that even small rewards feel meaningful, this way you stay off the headonism treadmill and conserve your weed which saves money
I feel the same way with benedryl in that I think of all this shit, fuck shot, but I don’t look at it cuz that illegal in my places, so I just think in darkness as the benedryl make happening better tho my gemson doesnt get hard anymore…
The only gambling I do is buying lottery tickets when I’m having the worst urges to kill myself. A little trick to wait just a bit longer. “You can wait until you get the results, it’s only couple days”, and then the worst urge manages to pass in that time. It’s pretty pathetic
doing what you need to in order to keep on surviving is the opposite of pathetic. it takes a lot of courage to keep persisting despite the horrors of our world
Nah, you hold on to whatever hope you have. Stay with us
I think that’s actually a pretty neat trick. So long as not winning doesn’t feel even more crushing.
You should get like a low maintenance pet, like a fish, snake, or lizard.
Oh I have a half of a zoo here already, it’s what’s keeping me around
I stopped smoking weed during the week so that I had something to look forward to on the weekends. It’s pretty pathetic
That’s smart, it’s a form of dopamine loading, you deny yourself immediate rewards and that builds anticipation, also it lowers your baseline dopamine so that even small rewards feel meaningful, this way you stay off the headonism treadmill and conserve your weed which saves money
not pathetic imo. whatever gets you through the week and allows you to keep surviving is perfectly valid!
I feel the same way with benedryl in that I think of all this shit, fuck shot, but I don’t look at it cuz that illegal in my places, so I just think in darkness as the benedryl make happening better tho my gemson doesnt get hard anymore…