Then you do, in fact, want to be here. So fuck off with the bullshit and accept that you’ve decided you’re here for the ride.

This isn’t tough and the tldr is my first post, but you’re clearly more interested in wallowing in it than moving past your disordered thinking.

Suicidal ideation isn’t a joke, fuckface.

We need shitposts, not shit posts.

Spoken like someone who has never had to deal with those thoughts.

Nice baseless assumption fuckboy.

For those unfamiliar, those are anti-depressants and anti-anxiety meds. Mine.

I’ve already spouted my personal psychological issues across other comments. I’m so sorry that I didn’t take the time to qualify my statement with an essay about my personal bullshit here.

I’m truly sorry about what you’re going through. If you feel that way then you aren’t getting the help you need. Notably, you also already have your clear reason not to end it. You should focus on that and work to build more reasons not to instead of getting pissy at an internet stranger for calling people out on glorification of suicide.

To put this as simple as fucking possible, in incredibly vague and simplistic terms (that are still true by personal fucking experience)

• Repeated self talk about how you don’t want to be alive and the like isn’t going to help you or anyone else who is having these feelings. It reinforces those thought patterns that you clearly already understand are not healthy.

• Being able to identify when you are having those disordered thoughts and doing your best to turn away from them helps reinforce against those patterns. It gets easier over time.

• Posting suicidal ideation content into the void of the internet does not ultimately help you or others with handling or moving past those feelings

There is value in knowing you’re not alone in your feelings, and humor reaches farther than other means, sure. But the internet as a whole is clearly far past that point, and I’m getting increasingly more exhausted sitting by and watching this shit be normalized.

I’ve been living with ADHD my whole life (close to 35 years now). Depression (officially) for around 15. Anxiety for around a decade.

There’s at least a five year span of my life that effectively isn’t there. There’s still a small voice in the back of my head afraid I’ll either wake up one morning and be back there, or I’ll come back to my senses and find that the past decade has been all delusion as my car is plummeting off the local bridge or into oncoming traffic lanes from what was a constant battle every day not to just fucking do it.

And I’m not talking about the relatively “normal” time sink from the covid lockdowns.

I have a mental list of various options for how I’d do it if it came to it, backed by actual fucking research. I did back then too, and was fucked up enough to not care anymore about the hurt to those around me or the potential pain to myself from doing it in a dumb as hell way like a traffic accident. Good way to end up still alive but crippled physically and financially for the rest of your life.

Anyway.

One of the hardest things to accept is that there is some logic and soundness to the dumbasses saying “have you just tried not being x?”.

It’s not that simple, true. People who don’t have these issues will never understand, true. It will be some of the most unrewarding, soul draining shit you’ve ever attempted, and there’s no shame if you can’t get there yet or if you can’t do it on your own.

But here’s the worst part: they aren’t entirely wrong.

You build your healthy coping mechanisms and your psychological toolkit to fight against this shit through constant neverending effort to work against the bad internal shit. The more you work against it, the stronger those tools get. Eventually, like repeated practice of martial arts or musical instruments over years, the things that took concious effort will begin to become unconcious. The equivalent of mental muscle memory, for lack of a phrase for it that doesn’t sound silly.

You’ll stumble. You’ll fail. You’ll have to start back over from what feels like (and may actually be) square one. But that work against it is ultimately the core of any way you’re going to be able to keep moving forward.

It will never be as simple as “just don’t be sad, lol”, but some aspect of your journey out of it will have to come from personal effort to not be what you are today.

On top of all that?

This isn’t even an actually funny joke about not wanting to exist anymore. “haha, I don’t want to live anymore even though they do! Rofl lmao.”

Boo! Get some better material.

I think a lot of people doing the funny haha suicidal ideation thing forget that it’s entirely within their power to opt-out of life if they really mean it.

Edit: and the evidence that you’re still here would happily indicate that you don’t truly mean it. So could you all please just cut it out?

I built right as the nVidia 3000 series came out, and when I wasn’t able to get one in the first month or two after release I said fuck it and bought one of the last new 2070 Supers I could find. Hooray for availability alerts.

I’ve been wanting to upgrade parts for like a year now, because it’s just starting to have issues with higher graphics settings on 1440p (had 1080p monitors when I bought it). Glad I went with 64GB RAM (DDR4, as was the standard of the time) and a little above mid range on the CPU. It’s absolutely fucking absurd to me that the parts that are still available (mobo, PSU, and GPU aren’t anymore) have effectively held their price point.

Dr. Horrible’s Sing Along Blog is one of the best things to come out of that writer’s strike.

A lot of computing “standards” seem to happen in waves. Not as directly as fashion, but still. Mainframes with endpoints are now the cloud.

You probably already know, but for the crowd:

Usually thin clients are clients that remotely connect into a central server that runs their VM, and the VM actually handles the compute. Like older mainframe and endpoint setups.

There’s still some minor compute hardware/resources on the thin client itself, but it’ll probably be more lightweight than expected. Maybe equivalent to an early model raspi?

Yeah, and when’s the last time anyone has legitimately seen Windows bluescreen for lack of RAM? I’m assuming that’s the “logic” here, because in what world would a stuck browser cause a full crash?

Man, I sure love tech memes not remotely based in reality.

Not sure the exact age, but it’s xkcd 1288, they’re up to 3195 now, and they’re usually posted every Monday Wednesday and Friday.

Napkin math says roughly 12 and a quarter years ago. (3195 - 1288 for total comics since, / 3 for number of weeks since, / 52 for number of years since, gets you 12.22 ish)

There’s some slightly more recent ones that are still many years old:

1625:

And 1697:

Lord, Channing Tatum. The Big Bang Theory. Truly from a different time.

I don’t get why these lazy one-off text replacement extensions keep making “tech news”. You can do this shit easily with a short userscript, and there are plenty of extensions for practically every browser that let you set your own text replacement settings. No need for individual extensions for each.

• slams -> literally disintegrates the bloodline of
• keyboard -> leopard
• cloud -> butt
• microsoft -> microslop
• 

There was this wonderful slice of time around a decade ago where fast food prices had started to rise but local sit-down places hadn’t. If you had the time and around $5-10 extra then it didn’t make sense to get fast food when you could get an actual meal.

Unfortunately inflation has caught up to even the local places now.

Lol, Palantir doesn’t care remotely enough to make an excuse like that. They’re openly proud of what they do.

Yeah, you don’t get Taco Bell because you want real Tacos or Mexican food, just like how you don’t go to McDonalds for a good burger.

You get Taco Bell because it’s convenient, because you’re high as fuck and their crazy monstorsities sound like perfect munchies, or because the call of the void today has manifested in a craving for their specific style of shitty junk food.

Yeah, give me a soggy disintegrating taco with a fucking big dorito chip for the hard shell. I’m going to dump like 5 sachets of the hot sauce on it. And I’ll have the taco salad in a flattened wrap with the massive cheez-it in the middle. Oh, and the burrito half filled with rice and cheese that has extra cheese grilled onto the outside and spicy Doritos inside too. I’ll wash it down with a criminal amount of the formerly exclusive overly sweet Mountain Dew flavor.

Just fuck my shit up.

I just effectively removed the limiter for the master bedroom shower. Wife enjoys being a lobster.

3/32" allen wrench, screwdriver, needlenose pliers, and about 10 minutes.

I’ve not seen womens pants available with larger pockets and non-form fitting. I’m not sure you can say it’s just a choice issue when the choice would be to just buy mens pants instead.

You can’t seriously be suggesting that lying to people about the sitaution is in any way helpful.

Fuck off and sow FUD elsewhere.

Lol, lmao even. That’s some careful word play for the sake of unneccesary hyperbole.

They have shot innocent white American citizens. In some other places they have gone door to door. Those are independent actions, not a combined reality. We can all agree they’re god awful as a massive understatement without lying about door to door murder squads.

Inb4 “if you have to make that kind of distinction you’re already fucked” yeah, we are, but accurate information about the ground situation is vital for any forward movement.

I don’t disagree, but corps are going to push the settings in their software and products that makes them the most money. It sucks but should be expected.

It’d be better if there were competitve open source options with the same ease of use, of implementation at scale, and ease of management at scale, but unless you’re willing to do custom forking and dev work, most of the time it’s easier to go with whatever is the overwhelming standard is and work around the rough spots, as at least then you’ll almost never be in completely uncharted waters.

I spent a few years building a custom solution for integrating a semi-popular but still relatively new HRIS system with a hybrid AD/Entra environment with a somewhat unique hybrid Exchange (email) setup. Doing it live, no real documentation to speak of because the few other places that had done it turn out to be consulting groups that sell their solutions for ridiculous amounts of money. My workplace has now hired an entire team and spent at least half a mil on a new software suite that will replace my solution eventually, after more dev work by this new team.

That was after I burned a year trying to figure out how in the hell I could programatically try to clean up a horribly misconfigured and mismanaged old SolarWinds Orion setup that had accumlated tech debt for years, only to be stymied because they don’t allow public discussion of their fucking database structure, and what I found out myself was batshit. Don’t trust software that use their own custom bastardization of SQL.

After those experiences I’m pretty damn content to stay in the land of “well documented and popular” and just work around the rough edges. Keeping up with patch and update news and delaying updates a little usually gives plenty of time to effectively opt-out by changing the settings before it hits our environment at large.

Fuck Microsoft’s bullshit, but at some point it’s the enemy you know, especially in a corporate environment. I’m no stranger to masochism through tech work, but I’ve gotten used to MS’s brand of fuckery, as a lot of us have.

No… then they don’t do what I’m talking about. I’m sorry you deal with the suck, but your IT team still gets hammers.

My workplace backs up to OneDrive itself. No requirement of work VPN, just sign in on a work machine with internet connection and confirm the MFA prompt.

Technically OneDrive is some unholy patchwork on top of Sharepoint Online, as evidenced by a ton of back end settings going through the SharePoint admin UI, but that’s not relevant to the discussion.

I didn’t even know it was possible to hijack Onedrive to point to SharePoint Server. For that matter who in the absolute fuck is still using Sharepoint Server? It went out of support two years ago, and extended support (at significantly extra cost) ends July 14th.

There is technically another On-Prem version past 2019, but it’s obvious bare minimum life support.

Plus, Microsoft locks so many of their security and other features baked into Azure behind Office 365 E5 licenses that most places are just using those for Office etc, and those come with a shit ton of storage per-user in OneDrive and SharePoint online.

We also don’t have auto-deletion turned on (yet). I’ve already done what I can to talk my boss out of it, but we will have options to prevent it on specific files and folders, as we already do with email (auto delete past certain age, unless it’s in the archove folder. you can set up auto archive rules if you need, but there’s rules on max space).

TL;DR- Your workplace does not in fact do “essentially what I described”, which is a large contributor to the issues you’ve seen. Go get hammers and beat your IT staff with them.

Especially the Sharepoint Server shit. That’s horrifying. No one should have to even think about touching that. Ewwww.