I wanted to be a developer, and create the kind of games that I wanted to play. Now, I just want to survive.

I feel that there is some world that others were brought into, that I was left too long to believe that I am a part of it, and I suffered a lot, trying to have the normalcy that others take for granted.

This is not my world, I don’t belong in it. My goal is to become independent enough to not have to worry about other humans exploiting me at all, or die trying.

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Cake day: December 5th, 2024

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  • 14 year old me would be confused and horrified by more than one thing. Starting with the LGBTQ+ acceptance, no faith, the fact that I’m doing a job that would be considered inhumane at all, and that I’m under some boss.

    On top of that, I am no longer asexual, so imagine how mind-blowing that is to someone for who doing the things I did was completelly unthinkable.

    Oh and the whole saving a life thing, my psych diagnosis proving I’m not simply lazy, the anti-human relationships outlook, lack of gaming desire.








  • Am I supposed to just you know, open myself up to the species that systematically mistreated me, paint a target on my back again? Put my hand down on the stove again? After so much time looking for alternatives?

    I’m not even sure what kind of people it would take for me to unclam again, what lies it would take to fool me.