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Cake day: July 5th, 2023

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  • There is no argument in those examples. Though it did make me recall my second house was littered with ants for about a year. Ugh I forgot how bad that was. Pour cereal and bam ants. Which makes sense given grandmas food practices.

    For my other phobias I ask myself the question how does my/those around me quality of life improve by getting over this and used that to fight my inner demons. I don’t see the benefits of peace yet. Keep in mind took 2 years of discussion for me to start to move with another phobia. At the very least I’m asking myself what would I need hear to change my position on this. I dk yet.


  • Justify, not really. Just saying after all the Child Therapy the impulse to destroy them for me is an improvement over the crippling fear. Based on my slow improvement with other phobias I going to need a really strong motivation to change any behavior. From my perspective, nothing is lost if every bug/rodent is removed from my home. Since there is a whole job market to remove them from homes. I guess the question I have to ask is why let them live?


  • No Way takes a month. Took me 6 months to set the towels the way my partner wants it. And the socks? I still miss it up if I’m not paying attention.

    So fun fact, The first childhood house was infested. Apparently I suffer massive trauma from a large number of bugs falling on me from weak ceiling that I mentally blocked out. Mom thinks its why I destroy them on sight with Astartes zeal. Frankly, is this way better than when I was a child. I remember crying at the sight of a bug until about elementary. Couldn’t even see a animated 2d bug without minor panic attacks. Then fear turned to a purification crusade*. *(while Im inside, outside is all them unless mosquito, wasps, ticks…etc)