I think I understand you now. I could also never be a cuck. However, when I stumble upon this kind of porn, I don’t have this feeling of disgust. I think it’s because I don’t identify with the cuck the same way as you do. Unless I made the video myself (I don’t make videos) all characters in porn movies are strangers to me. I like women and if the porn movie has a women that attracts me she’ll (because it’s a movie) always have sex with someone else, not me. So it wouldn’t make sense for me to feel jealous or hurt because of it. If there’s a cuck in such a video it’s just another dude in my view and him being mentally tormented is just an idea or symbol of her absolute power over men. However, in real life I wouldn’t want to be in this kind of situation, especially not with someone I deeply care about. It’s weird and so is my mind.