Only 4 more decades of my shift left on earth.
Live long enough to get revenge on the factors that made your life shit.
Any decade now my depression will lift and the suicidal thoughts will stop, I can feel it… Surly… Right…?
No but seriously, call me cynical but every time someone says some variation of “It gets better” I feel like there’s an unsaid “and if it doesn’t, it’s your fault” in there. Most positive affirmations just annoy me, tbh, I just find them incredibly unhelpful. … I may be a bad person. 🫠
My life isn’t even that bad, but “it gets better” always feels like gaslighting
ever notice that it’s usually the privileged people saying it?
I prefer to live because of spite.
It’s a neverending well!
You’re not a bad person, I also find them annoying. Maybe even cruel. Like, things may get better for some people, but fact is, they won’t get better for many others.
Look up Mapo bridge in South Korea.
Apparently positive messages and affirmations don’t work for people who are suicidal.
I’m not that far gone (mostly angry at shit) but yeah I can see that.
I can’t speak for anyone else but my life is so much better now than when I was 14. It’s not even close.
It can happen.
Same. I guess some people start doing lots of drugs and other quick vices to cope and that certainly does not help in the long term.
I made the “reverse” deal with myself. I’m very curious so I thought I would stay alive and see how the world fucks itself up throughout the years. So far I’m not disappointed. I always think extreme capitalism can’t get worse, but yet, it does. During the pandemic I thought that surely this would at least “wake some people up”, in part. But no. People sleeping and dying in the cold streets. People that can’t eat. Poverty being criminalized. People cheering authoritarianism and genocide. We kill and let people die for the imaginary value of a currency stored in computers. It’s quite a show if you’re a cynical bastard waiting for the bubble to pop, even if it probably never will.
My whole theme when I was young was to try and travel/work as much as possible: I know it’s going to suck, but it’s going to be a different type of suck.
Eventually ran into another like minded soul…go fucking figure.
