Wellll, my wife is bi. I have a constant (not really constant, just when my insecurity is dragged out by a nightmare or something) nagging fear that she’ll leave me for a woman one day. (I’m a man).

Maybe it’s just an extra layer because it potentially opens more doors.

You know how some things people say just echo in your head forever? You hear a thousand points from a thousand people and most of it just goes in one ear and out the other, but something sticks for some reason or other and it just echoes in your brain.

An idiot, misogynist, redneck said to me, “once ‘ey get uh little pussy it’s a matter uh time. They want it like anybody who wants it, and they won’t go without it forever.”

When I’m feeling particularly insecure, that dumb shit just shows up in my brain.

I’m aware that I’m being stupid. I don’t express this to my wife because I’m being stupid and I know it.

Well, overly stupid people scream their insecurities out loud constantly.

I’ve met some really, really stupid gay people. They’re people like anyone else, of course.

The truth is, if I were to hand myself over to my sexuality entirely, I’d be fucking as many people as I could as often as possible. My sexuality isn’t all I am. It’s a small part of who I am. I just have to trust that my wife is as serious about us as I am. She hasn’t given me a reason not to trust her.

I guess my point is, idiot+insecure=bigotry.

If my wife ever leaves me for a woman, I won’t let it verify my insecurity. She could just as easily leave me for a man. No point in letting my insecurities make me a bigot. Gay people aren’t immune to bigotry.

And no one did a thing when they were on the verge of having them because North Korea doesn’t have anything worth taking would be my guess.

I did that for a while, and I’ll be exaggerating my uselessness but here goes.

“No, that can’t be him. See, the man who did the robbery was wearing a pair of pantyhose on his face. This guy has no such article of clothing on his face. His friend had on a ski mask, I don’t see a ski mask on this man’s face. Yeah, they’re wearing the same shoes but what about the face coverings, hmmmmm?”

As a stay at home dad, I should have time to accomplish something, but I don’t. I just clean all day and chase kids around.

Then I get insecure and have nightmares where my wife is telling me she’s moving out because she found someone else who has a good job.

I plead with her, “I’m only doing this because you told me to! I’ll go work wherever. We’ve got it good. We’re happy. Why are you doing this? I would have never quit my job without you telling me to do just that, and this is what it gets me?”

I really wish I could stop my brain from creating all of this stupid shit when I go to sleep. I at least wish I could sleep through it and forget about it.

I at least know it’s just my insecurity and I don’t make it her problem. I had an ex who would dream I cheated or that I was leaving her and she’d be pissed at me for days haha. I was all, “look babe, I didn’t fuck her, you practically just seen a drawing that your brain made of me fucking her. You can’t hold that against me!” :p

I’ve been dealing with this forever.

Some issues I have that I only deal with when I’m not signed in without an adblocker:

If I try to skip back to a spot in a video, I get the loading circle and sometimes it doesn’t come back until I refresh the page. I have to make a mental note of the time and do that pretty often.

In safari and Firefox I will get a black box for about 40 seconds, no play button, and sometimes I have to refresh the page a few times just to get it to work at all.

Comments will not load sometimes until I refresh the page, sometimes more than once.

The video will sometimes stop and start “loading” while I’m watching it. The solution is always a page refresh or two.

Signed in with an adblocker, the problems drop by about 50% (pulled that number out of my ass, but I’d be willing to bet it’s close). Signed in with no adblocker on Firefox or Safari and the issues become significantly less noticeable, with exceptions from time to time. Signed in with no adblocker on chrome or edge, I experience none of this.

I believe they purposely throttle it on non chromium browsers too.

Sorry if this comment is jumbled. Woke up in the middle of the night with a stomach ache, got bored waiting for it to pass, so now I’m here and barely conscious.

This. As a hillbilly with no access to books growing up, with my education practically stopping at the 4th grade and no stores in sight to purchase books from, I would have never had access to the things I read without piracy.

I half believe that’s why it’s an issue in the first place.

I started my reading adventure at 640x480 on windows 98.

Isn’t protest coooooo you guys?

Oh this is rad, thank you!

First of all, I have not seen it, and second off, I don’t want to see it. Lets focus on the Reddit lawsuit.

This is fucking funny. :p

You gotta get longer cut tobacco and a scale to keep it consistent.

I process my non-processed foods in hopes that it will kill me quick quicker. :p

I’m so dark and cold inside. You wouldn’t understand.

Huht huht huht

I love drinking until I’ve had a drink, and then I do that again every single day. I don’t drink a lot but it’s still aggravating.

My mother quit smoking 25 years ago and still has panic attacks about it every few weeks.

That pisses her off so she won’t ever smoke again.

Meanwhile idiots like me ended up vaping all day long and when I went back to cigarettes my tolerance was through the roof and I smoked more than I ever did.

I can relate.

I never got as bad as my father, who used a lighter once a day and lit the rest of them off of the last one.

I roll my own. Cheap as hell, but I wish I could stop. I’d lose my goddamn mind if I did.

I do both! Wooohoooo!

So start smoking and you won’t even notice.

Seriously though, as a lifelong smoker I do my best to keep it from being anyone else’s problem.

I wouldn’t have seen the two thin legs without y’all helping me.

Probably because I grew up during the “let’s all look like Jonathan Davis” era.